I'm so unfocused. I don't even know why I started writing this journal. I think it was going to be a rant but then I decided to delete it. I don't know why I feel like everyone's life should revolve around me, but I do. I feel slighted if I'm no one calls me to say, "Hey do you want to, go to such a place," or "do such a thing?" It makes me angry for no reason and then I become angrier at myself for being irrational, but humans are irrational aren't they? I SHOULD be at the center of the life of everyone I know. Their lives SHOULD revolve around me. That's not at all irrational or egotistical. Sublime in its rationality.